Rambling.

Back from Texas, and back to school :(
Spring break was pretty good, the weather was a disappointment though. The first 2-3 days were great, and then it went down to about 40-50 degrees and rainy. It never rained too hard out on the water though luckily. Still, I was expecting it to be warmer so I only brought 2 hoodies and I had to keep rotating them so they could dry.

I wish I was better at talking to people. I don't know why, I just hate making conversation. I don't feel like I'm uncomfortable around people, there's just this subconcious barrier that makes me turn off. I'm definitely an observer more than an interacter. I really like watching people and listening to their conversations. That sounds creepy, but I'm not a stalker or anything. I just don't join in much. This is supposed to relate to the party last night. There was a crew party and everyone wore their uni's and basically got trashed since it was the last night of spring break. I don't drink, so I don't know if there was any point of me going, but it's really entertaining to watch drunk people do funny things. I think if I were to drink, maybe I would open up a little, but I don't really want to drink. I'm not against underage drinking, I just feel that I know too little about all the social norms that go along with it, and it costs a lot of money and it doesn't taste very good, not that I've had enough alcohol to know what tastes good or bad. I just feel like I don't belong with people, I'm always on the sidelines.

It must seem like I'm depressed a lot; I always write about being lonely and boring, but that's just what comes out of me. There is a lot more inside but I don't know how to balance that in my writing. Ahhh speaking of writing I have a huge paper due on Thursday and I really need to work on that. I feel so selfish that all I can think about is what I am worried about and that makes it hard for me to relate to other people's problems. I am so naive in this big world. Anyways, the weather is extremely nice today, so peace out for now!