Self-destructive

I need to get more sleep. Last night I went swing dancing, and ended up staying the whole time then everyone was going to get bubble tea so I went, figuring if it's already that late, I might as well stay out longer. Then I got some Insomnia Cookies with Scott because they were 8 for $4.20 (mmmmmmmmm). Then I felt guilty that I didn't learn any chem, then I woke up at 5:05 to go to rowing, then I went to chem and actually guessed 2 questions right on the quiz. Now I am sitting here tempted to eat up all my sweets so they will be gone, and I can focus on starting to eat healthy. That will most likely never happen. I think I am at that stage in life where I feel "invincible" like, I am never going to have the difficulties getting old that all the old people complain about. But I know I will eventually, and I will regret all the things I could have done better, or never did at all. I have no idea how I am going to learn how to be an engineer in 2 years. Especially with rowing. Next year is going to be so hard. And I have to learn to fit in a job with everything too. I'm just being moody.

Ice cream is yummy.

I think I am going to pull an all-nighter tonight, then go to morning practice, and hopefully have a good jump on my Africa paper so I'm not so stressed on Wednesday. This may be a first...I'm actually not waiting until the night before to start a paper! I cannot wait for this week to be over.

Also...Glee!!! In 2 days! :) :)

Another funny image:

To the point.

Recently I have seen two houses with waterfalls. One was inside and the other was outside, but I thought they were both awesome, and I think I would like to live in a house with a waterfall someday. I really enjoy nature. Except for my stupid spring allergies.

I have been thinking it would be cool to be a camp counselor. I don't know about being gone for the entire summer, as I have never done that before, but I went away to college so it's not much different. And I am not the most outgoing person ever, but the more I characterize myself as such, the more true it is. That should not be an excuse for me. I am just a person.

Song of the day: I still Wonder by Joseph Birdsong
And this is funny (in a twisted sort of way):

Lemonhead box.

So obviously no BEDA. I guess I'll try BAMF with Kristina Horner.

Today I had a presentation for my Africa class, which I stayed up all night putting together and the powerpoint was only like 10 slides so I wasn't sure if it would be long enough, but it went a lot better than I thought. I also listened to Mugglecast on the way to class, and that cheered me up even though this whole week is going to suck, because now that my presentation is over I have to write a 20-page paper. Ugggh I hate writing! And I have to work on another group project for biosystems and do a presentation about that next week, after most likely pulling another all-nighter to finish my stupid paper. And I have to figure out my schedule for next year, and what I'm doing over the summer. And I'm so exhausted with rowing, but it looks like I probably won't be in a single after all, so that's good. Also, I haven't been to swing dancing in 2 weeks because I've been busy, and I think I'll probably miss next week too, which is sad. I'm just trying to deflect everything so I don't get stressed, but I have to vent somewhere. I always feel bad when the only thing I have to talk about is complaining about my life.

Today in physics, I was really tired so I decided to close my eyes for a few minutes, and just wake up when we had a clicker quiz. Apparently I moaned and didn't notice it. And my friends laughed at me, haha. I felt like Moaning Myrtle kind of because of my bad mood and, well, the fact that I moaned. I don't really know what kind of moan it was, like pleasurable to be sleeping or groan, I have to wake up. I'm just trying to think pretty pink and blue thoughts though.

I have the song "Oh My Sweet Carolina" in my head by Ryan Adams. I think I'm going to go look up the lyrics now...

P.S. The title is just a random ting on my desk, because it's better to have a random title than none at all.

BEDA Again?

I'm not sure if I'll do the whole month, but I might as well start on time just in case I want to...I don't update this blog very much. I just love the layout and it's my first blog so I can't just delete it though.

Today was a really nice day. Everyone was outside playing sports or studying in the grass. I should take advantage of nice days more, but I finally got my ipod back, along with my headphones so I caught up on youtube videos. It was warm at rowing in the morning, and I rowed in a good four so the day was pretty good all in all.

In the WB Harry Potter online shop there is a 20% off sale today and tomorrow and I kind of want to buy something, but it is bad to spend money. The wallet was not that expensive though and it looked pretty nice. Maybe tomorrow, if I'm still in the mood.

TTFN!